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Listening to: Koe wo kikasete - Big Bang
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Reading: Akai ito
Working on: ~ Drawings! :)
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Heh I miss Hoshiru. So much. For some odd reason, I don't feel like blogging here anymore. I wonder what that reason is. Boredom? Hmmm.. It all started from the beginning of the year...

There are times where I don't understand myself. Or am I just too afraid to admit that I have a part of me that I don't like? A slight hypocrite you can say? But now I look back in Hoshiru, I knew that this is the kind of person I am. I knew what was coming up if I get into a relationship with anyone. "I'm not ready to be in any relationship right now. It screws my brain up." What I said a little over a year ago.. "I get jealous easily, so I would start getting wrong ideas. It's nothing but a pain".

Have I really changed? Or am I still the same person that I used to be? Lately I feel like I'm being selfish, critical, angry, sad. Whats up with that? When I look carefully at whats going on in my life there's nothing but happiness. Yet when my sister talks to me, and if I'm in a bad mood, I found myself replying to her in an annoyed voice. Or sometimes I say things that I know would make people angry ... but I say it anyway.

So... lets see what is there to open up such a shitty side of myself. I guess I'll list all the good things that's going on first.

The good things!: Its summer!! I'm in love with a wonderful guy. And guess what he loves me too. Remember when you thought that was a miracle??? Ya... it was and still is ♥. I got Photoshop working and my drawing hands are coming back!! Max recently got me Papa-Zou x) I'm not sick anymore!!! Its sunny almost everyday. I graduated from High school! I don't have to work 4-5 days a week like last summer. My mom and dad haven't been fighting. Ahhh~

The bad things?: Why do I have to work in the afternoon?! I got temp ban from MapleStory and they aren't replying to my ticked. **** that. I don't get to see Max as often as I use to during school times :'( I can't find something to play or watch that sparks my interest. I WANT FANTASY DAMMIT! I've been sleeping too late and waking up too late. Vitamin D deficiency Dx

Sigh... Hey I guess that felt kinda nice. Thanks Hoshiru

Mood: Happy yet sad.
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